I’ll write to you guys about me moving on and getting over this horrible heart break. I’ll first start with the date I am about to go on today.. Ahhh!! This will be the second date I go on after my break up. I’m excited. This guy is smart and nice and omg I love our conversations. He seems like a true gentleman. I’ll tell you guys about it after. I’ll title these posts with their name…but in code haha.
We’re over. Broken up. Exactly one month ago he broke up with me in the most horrible way possible. I’ve gone through it all, the empty feelings, not wanting to live, thinking there’s nothing left for me. He was my world, my everything. I can’t keep letting him hurt me. I have to learn to stop caring. He always said love isn’t something you just turn on and turn off. You can’t just wake up one day and not love someone… but he just proved himself wrong. He doesn’t love me anymore. He got a new girlfriend not even two weeks after our break up… and she works at my job.. the job where I got him hired. Like my mom said “you can’t fix what’s been broken”. I don’t think this can be fixed. He’s done everything to make it as hard as possible for me. I was a little crazy, I’ll admit. But who wouldn’t go a little crazy after knowing that a guy you spent two years with and gave everything to just threw you away and moved on with another girl. I’ll give more details later on..
if everything I do for him is worth it. Then I see the smile he makes in the pictures and remember how he’d look at me… yeah, it’s worth it. He’s worth it.